Sleeping Babies

Rocking now toddler Emma on a quiet day.

I can’t believe how fast time flies. It seems like yesterday I was rocking this little girl the day she came home from the hospital. Now she will be 18 months next week.

Being a mom has taught me how much love you can truly have for another person. It wasn’t easy to feel that way though. My daughter and I have had some interesting ups and downs but in the end I love her and she loves me. She doesn’t have many words yet but I can hear her love for me when she says “mama” with a smile in the morning when I get her out of her crib and tender moments like these where she fell asleep in my arms. She is my love.

So I guess I just wanted to say don’t let life steal these moments from you. Even if you don’t have kids, there are precious moments that are lost if we are not aware. I’m a busy mom, wife, daughter, and friend but those are the things that make my life whole. I would not be me without them.

So next time you are in a hurry driving to work or cleaning the millionth mess that day, stop and look out the window. There be something waiting to be shown to you.

Moving Forward

Moving forward. That’s it. Sometimes you come up with things in your path and you don’t know where to go. Do you face it or do you crawl up and cry? Sometimes I want to do both at the same time. But that isn’t what anyone should do.

I read a sign in a restaurant that said, “There are only obstacles when you take your eyes off your goal”. I loved it. There are things that I have goals about and have had some obstacles about them. My book for one, and I have started to feel like giving up. Like I have made too big of a fool of myself. It’s a big obstacle that I don’t know if I can face it. But I have to remember my goal. I want this story out and I want to inspire others.

So while Potholes of Hope is still not ready to be released again, I have to keep my head up. God has it taking this long for a reason and I can’t lose hope. Heck, that is what the book is all about. I guess I am having to practice what I preach 🙂  Funny how things work out that way.

9/11 – Never Forget

I know there has been a lot of stuff going around about 9/11. It was a terrible day. Only a traitor would think it victorious. I remember when the 9/11 happened. I was 9 years old and so naive that something so bad could happen. But I remember watching the towers fall on the TV and the terror in my mom’s eyes since she knew what it meant.

Well now so do I. It means to be an American you have to stand up for America. We went to war shortly after to “catch” the group that caused the attack but we all know that was flawed and misused. We have lost too many good men and women in a war that will only be won by people really caring to get their hands dirty. To stand up for what’s right.

What is that? Not turning their back on their country to join the same group 14 years later is a good start. Second is to have a leader who cares more about his country than his agenda. 9/11 should never be forgotten since it was the day a line was drawn in the sand. A day that Americans could have stood up and said enough is enough. To go back to how the founding fathers wanted it. But, no, that didn’t happen. We are in worst shape than ever and it was the cause of the same people who could have saved it.

We might say that we haven’t forgotten but we have. And it is going to take another disaster to change our ways. I just hope that our enemies don’t destroy us first from the inside out.

I will never forget and I will always defend our country for how she should be. “I pledge allegiance to the flag of the United States of America. And to the Republic, for which it stands. One Nation, under God, indivisible, for liberty and justice for all”.

My Happy Ending

Ok, I will admit it. I love Once Upon a Time from ABC. I probably lost about half my readers with that statement but I love it and am proud of it. And the reason isn’t because the acting is oscar status or the effects state of the art, it’s because the actors seem to 100% into their characters. They are committed to the script and do a good job at it. Also I just love fantasy stories and fairytales.

But the one thing that is the best in it is the happy endings. It feels like real life. Growing up with Disney, it seemed like everyone got their happy ending and they literally live happily ever after. In Once Upon a Time that isn’t always the case and it is a model that is more believable.

I got my happy ending with my prince but it doesn’t mean that we will live in palace and never have problems again. There will be always evil queens and bad people wanting to take that happiness away. The difference for my prince and I is that our fate has a name. It isn’t just chance or a good attitude that makes for a happy ending. It is faith but in the right thing.

God has His strange ways of revealing things to people and mine was in the latest episode I saw of Once Upon a Time. If you haven’t seen it then sorry for the spoil alerts. But I have grown fond of the evil queen and how much she just wants to be happy. But she has depended on herself for her happiness and done quite a few bad things to get it. Now she thinks that she is doomed to being unhappy forever because bad people don’t get happy endings. There’s a book that stops them from having their happy ending.

See where I am going with this? If not, then just hold tight. So That was where I thought about how God feels about us and how we feel about him. Those who have done bad things feel like the Bible condemns them to a life of unhappiness and misery but that isn’t the case. It just shows how your life will be without Christ to forgive you and bring you into his fold. Does God not like bad people? Yes. Did He create them to come back to him? Yes. So don’t think that just because you have done bad things God can’t love you and want you to have a happy ending.

Now, on the other hand, just because you have Christ in your life won’t mean the happy ending won’t be without trials. Just like with Snow and Charming, they had to fight constantly to keep it from being split a part. And many times it almost happened, but their true love is was kept them together in the end. It is the same true love God has for everyone. With His love, as a believer, you can face any troll or dragon in your path.

When “Storybrooke” needed a savior, it came in the form of Emma Swan. When our world needed a Savior, it came in Jesus Christ. And just like Henry had the heat of the true believer, we have to have the same faith in order to believe that God sent His only Son to die on the cross for us. I am glad I did and I hope you are too. And if you haven’t yet, I pray you will. Because we all want a happy ending.

“Remember Who You Are”

Normally I am not all for being totally personal on the internet. I mean complete strangers read my blog so why would I want to hang out any dirty laundry? We are all supposed to be perfect right? No drama, no problems, no worries. Hakuna Matata right? Well that is not true and we shouldn’t act like that is how it is supposed to be.

I am human (in case you had doubts) therefore I make mistakes. Many of which I would like to forget but they are there. They will always be there no matter how hard I try to bury them. Some are good lessons and others just turned out to be an embarrassment. But to be frank I have not always had a Hakuna Matata life. Not because of my parents or other relatives but because of me. I made the choices that have led my life in the direction that it has gone.

But really thinking about it, I wouldn’t change anything I have done. Were some of them the best choices, no, but they were still my choices. If I hadn’t made them the good things in my life would never have happened. God worked it out that way for me. One example would be if I didn’t go through a terrible relationship then I would have never been pushed to go to college like I was and never would have met my husband. He is the best thing in my life and my most precious relationship I have. All the bad times are worth it in one handsome package of my husband.

The key though is not losing yourself just because you have gone through hard times. I have been learning this lesson lately. When I was going through my trouble stage, I was forced into becoming someone I wasn’t but when it was over in many ways I never knew how to go back. I was still me but there were pieces of me that hadn’t fallen away to show the true me underneath. I realized that writing has been a key to learning who I am not necessarily who I was. I am one in the same. I am who I was and who I will be. For scholars that should be a fun one.

As it is stated in “The Lion King” Mufasa says, “Remember who you are” when Simba is being led to go back to the pride lands. (I have been watching the movies I grew up with with my daughter so they are fresh in my mind.) He had grown up to be a really cool lion but there was a part of him that was still there even though he had grown up. It was his core of kingship. Which I think is still cool after all these years but that isn’t the point.

My point is that when you pick up an old habit, like writing for me, that might have happened before something drastic happened in your life,it might help you remember who you are. I am so happy I was pushed back into writing and getting published. Even with the current side road, it still will happen. I just need to be patient and remember who I am as a person. My name is Gracelyn, I love to write and I am an awesome person. The rest is in the past. I look forward to my future.

This is how I used to wear my hair when I was like thirteen. It had been awhile so I thought I would give it a try. Pardon the fact my hair isn't cut to be parted in the middle.
This is how I used to wear my hair when I was like thirteen. It had been awhile so I thought I would give it a try. Pardon the fact my hair isn’t cut to be parted in the middle.

Growing and Changing

So I have been having fun reading this year. I am on my eighth book for this year and it’s been a good selection.

Right now I’m half way through Breaking Dawn by Stephanie Meyer. I have enjoyed the whole series but this one from the Twilight saga has been my favorite. Why is that? I’ve gotten to see the characters grow and change and I like how they have turned out. It’s a great tool for me to learn from.

Character development has been an ok thing of mine but it wasn’t until I started taking note with the books I read on how the other authors do it. You know, the #1 sellers. And it seems to be the key.

So now that I have Potholes of Courage finished and being proofed, I can see  where I want my characters to go in the third book.

It’s been fun picking up the series again and actually finishing it. I have always loved my characters but now I really love them as they grow and change as the third book is coming to life.

The Funny Things in Life

So we just had something really funny happen today. We won a raffle package for our chickens from our feed store. We don’t have very many chickens so I thought it was pretty funny. From the picture below you can tell we will have some very happy chickens with all their new toys.

Yay for chickens! :)
Yay for chickens! 🙂

Who knew there was chicken treats! I raised chickens as a kid and I guess ours were deprived chickens because I had never heard of such a thing. And I was just telling my hubby we needed leg bands (to tell the chickens a part) and the ceramic eggs will be great since we have a couple that just can’t figure it out.

God is good and He knows our needs. Even when you think He has given up on you and He doesn’t care, think again. He is a good Father and a good God who loves all His kids. We have some other things going on that are bigger than a chicken raffle prize but they were needed and God provided.

So if today you need encouragement or you think that God has abandoned you don’t lose hope. He has a plan and He will follow through with it. I thought He told me it was time for my book to be out in the world but it had to be brought back home for some more growing up. It will be released again in due time but for now I am having to do some growing up too in order to get ready for the release.

And one day, just like how my chickens thought I was crazy when I gave them the meal worm treats, God will reveal His plan and you might look at Him like He is crazy but it will be perfect. Just keep your eyes open and your heart soft.