When You Need to Be Happy For Others

I had an interesting thing happen to me this weekend. I was blessed to be invited to one of my dear friend’s baby shower for second son who is due in April. It was interesting because her first son and my daughter are only three days a part. So we were pregnant at the same time in 2014 but this time we aren’t, and everyone knows why. She has had her own road, and, trust me, I am SUPER happy for her and her husband. They are great friends and parents and I feel so blessed to have them in my life.

Where the test comes in is, am I happy without jealousy? You can be happy for someone but still have jealousy in your heart. I remember, before I was pregnant with my daughter, we were told we were never going to be able to conceive a baby, and you know those times where you are told you can’t have something it seems like Satan shoves it in your face? Well that is what happened. It seemed like with every turn I took there was another pregnant woman who was more than likely complaining about how much her pregnancy was inconveniencing her life. I used to get so made at that because this woman was complaining about something that I wanted to go through and couldn’t. I had to learn to not let it get to me and just let it go.

That was the hardest thing I have had to do in a long time. It was a real growing time for me in my life to not be angry and not to turn bitter. I had to spend a lot of time in prayer and surround myself with the right kind of people or I would have become a not very nice person to be around. I had to look at the women’s faces and the not the bulging bellies in front of me. Only then was I able to be happy for them.

Well fast forward two years, I was blessed with a miracle baby, (I am going to write a post on that next so stay tuned) and she is about to turn two. I am so blessed and excited to be with this little girl everyday. I am so thankful that God gave her to me. I just have to be OK with the fact that she might be our only blessing. Just because God gave her one miracle baby doesn’t mean that I am entitled to another one. I have to be able to be happy and content with what I have to be able to be blessed  more. Now that doesn’t necessarily mean having another child. It could mean my daughter going to school or my husband getting a job promotion. As long as my hands are full, I can’t expect to take on any more. And that is how God works with his blessings.

All that to say, when I went to the baby shower, I had a choice. I could be honestly happy for my friend and the fact that God has blessed her with another baby even though He hasn’t blessed my womb, or was I going to be jealous and make the experience miserable for myself? Everyone one there was going to make it about my friend, was I going to or was I going to moan and groan about losing my three babies?

I am happy to report that I was able to enjoy the baby shower with full happiness and joy for my friend. She is such an inspiration of how to be gracious and beautiful. I really admire her.

So anyway, I am still not perfect but I can feel that I growing in this area of happiness in the mist of infertility. May God keep giving me the grace to keep moving forward. I want to be His hands and feet. I am His servant, and, what He wants, that I will do.

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My beautiful daughter during on of her recent nap times. I am so blessed!

 

When the Day Goes Right

How often can we say that? I haven’t been able to say a day wen as planned I think since my daughter was born. But today seemed to go just right 🙂 We got up, had breakfast, my daughter was in a good mood, went to my candy store (the fabric store), Costco where I got some herbs and strawberries for my garden, and then home again.

Once home, I planted my herbs and strawberries, my daughter was ready for a nap, I sewed a shirt extension that someone had ordered and then I made a maxi skirt. I thought my daughter would be up by then so I sat down with my computer to do some admin work with my book and my Etsy Shop but she still gave me another hour of nap time! I couldn’t believe it! Must be growing time for her. The only time she sleeps more than two hours is when she is going through a growth spurt.

So now I am just sitting here waiting for her to wake up and my husband to get home for us to eat dinner and have a relaxing night. Like I said, these kind of days are not normal but, when they happen, I am very grateful 🙂

But it got me thinking, that God really does look out for us and we do have the mountain moments when things are going right. It just means that I need to enjoy the moment that I have and prepare myself for what will be coming in the future. Maybe if I am little bit prepared, no matter what is, I will be able to handle it the way that God would want instead of me running around like Chicken Little yelling “The sky is falling!” when really it might just be a simple change in direction and not a complete tragedy.

So here’s to the blessing of good days and may God be with us all when the days get hard. He is control of both and both are for our good.

I Now Have a New Domain!!

Great news! I now have my own direct domain for this blog! Instead of it being gracelynswritingcorner.wordpress.com it is now just gracelynswritingcorner.com! Isn’t that cool? Sorry if it sounds silly to be so excited about something but I really am. I feel somewhat professional. The next thing I plan to do is get to 150 blog posts by the end of the year and I would like to upgrade from the free version of Word Press to the next level. I know I can do it because I have God with me and with Him all things are possible. What just might change are time lines but that’s ok with me 🙂

Alive in Me

I love the lyrics of this song. I was listening to it in the car with my daughter today as we were running around doing our errands and it got me thinking – Do I really believe what this song is saying? I know that I am a child of God but I have always been taught that God is something that is out there and that He has control over everything in the universe. It wasn’t until recently have I been going to my current church that my pastor has been really talking about God living in us.

It is totally mind blowing to even think of such a thing. The almighty God, living in me. Wow! I am so not worthy and unfit to be a vessel of His but then I really hit that God – uses only “unfit” vessels because then He is the one who gets all the glory. If it was really up to me to do anything great in my life, I would be in a very bad place right now. Actually, I would probably be dead.

It is only by the grace of God that I have made it this far in life. He is the only reason that I continue to wake up in the morning. It is only through Him that I have the courage to do the things I do. I’ll tell you that writing this blog, publishing a book, and having an Etsy Shop is really scary for me. I have always been a very private person but lately it seems like God has been pushing me to come out of my shell. I am not sure He feels that I need to spill my guts out tho the world, but He does and I know better than to say “No” to Him. It is always easier to just do as the Lord leads than to fight Him.

So the question for me is, do I believe that God is alive in me? Yes I do! He is my rock and my fortress. I can hide in Him and I can stand firm with Him beside me. He has never left or forsaken me. Like a little broken child, I can come to Him and have Him hold me as I cry both tears of pain and celebrate with tears of joy. And, one day, I will get to meet my God face to face. I can’t wait, but, until then, I get to be here and enjoy the life He has given. I get to show other people that God truly is alive. He is alive in everything and He is definitely alive in me.

Feel free to comment 🙂

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My Blog Got a Facelift!

So my little blog has been looking really sad. Not because of lack of readers but rather I have had no idea what I have been doing. I just set up my Word Press account and there you go. It wasn’t until I read the book Born to Blog that I realized how shoty my blog really looked. So I looked into the setting and gave it some color, fixed how my name looked, added another page, and made a few widgits. Wow does it look better! I still have a lot to learn with this whole blogging thing but I feel like I am moving along. Who knows? I might even upgrade to my own URL!…. Hmm…

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Read Potholes of Hope’s First Chapter!

Hello to all my awesome readers and supporters. Have you been on the fence about whether or not to give Potholes of Hope a try? Well now you can have a sneak peek with the whole first chapter! I know are going to love it so here is the link on Amazon so that you can keep reading it 🙂

Potholes of Hope Chapter Sneak Peek

Thanks for reading! 🙂

When to Work on Something New

Now that Potholes of Hope has been released, I have left asking “Now what?” Do I wait for it to be a success or should I go ahead and publish another book? And, if I publish another book, should I wait for it to be the sequel (that is in the works of being proof read so keep an eye for “Potholes of Courage”!) or should I go with another book that I am working on?

All these questions are driving me crazy and I don’t know what to do. So right now, I have two books being proofed and working on one on my end. So that is where I am with my writing venture. I guess I am trying to figure out where I want to go with my writing. I have my series of Potholes that is a good young adult book that is all about God and His plans for us. I have another Christian booked being proofed so I have no problem with that one being released.

I just have this one story that is technically Christian based but it is a little bit more racy than the rest of my stuff. So I guess it is not a full Fiction Romance, it is pushing Erotica Romance. It’s not smutty like a dirty Harlequin novel or anything but it is a little more descriptive in a couple of scenes than my fluffier young adult Potholes series. The rest of the book has awesome character development and a really cool plot. I think that adults would really enjoy this book.

I just don’t want to taint my reputation as young adult writer but I don’t want to be stuck there either. So what do I do? I was suggested to use a pen name but I don’t know how I feel about that. I don’t even know how to properly market a book under my own name let alone a pen name.

If you have any insight on this matter, please comment below. I would really appreciate the help.

Update: So I finished reading the romance book I was telling you about and it rather surprised me on how I wrote it. It is a Christian book with just two sex scenes written in it. One is a dream and on is in reality with her husband. There is no fornication any where and it goes deep into how God uses unconventional ways to make His plan come about. I think it is just a mature read but I think that could still publish it under my own name.

Through Simple Eyes

What do you do when you wake up first thing in the morning? Go straight for the coffee pot or maybe you are on of those amazing people who go and grab your running shoes. Me? I lay in bed for a minute and listen to my daughter play in her room and how joyful she is in the simple things in life.

It doesn’t take much for her to be happy. She doesn’t care right now what she wears or how great her toys are. She is just happy to go outside and play in the dirt with me and my husband. As long as she has us, she is the happiest. Is that how we are as adults? I know I’m not most days. I have to fight jealousy and greed on a daily basis while walking through this material world we live in. But right now my daughter is so innocent that she isn’t touched by it. I wish that I can be like that.

Wait! We can! Jesus says in John 16:33

“I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.”
Now wanting the BMW may not seem like tribulation but it is. Satan gives us tribulation everyday whether it be spiritual or by man. Both will try to take our joy away but the joy of the Lord is our strength. We can be happy in the simple things as well as the affluent things because we are of Jesus and He has already done the work for us. I mean look at this face.
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How can you not see the joy in her eyes? She just loves life and everything in it. I admire her and want to be like her. I would love it if what made me happy was my binki, my monkey and my mommy. In many ways I do. I have my Bible, my Jesus and my family 🙂