Dang PCOS

So I just got my blood test back and it was negative. I have to still talk with my doctor but I guess it’s my PCOS flaring up for me not having a period since January. I don’t really know whether to be happy or sad to be honest. There’s tears for sure but not like before. I love having one child so I am thankful that is just just her right nowvbut what I am sad about is that means I can’t get pregnant again at all.

With the last three times it was because they wouldn’t implant but this time it is because I’m not ovulating again for this missed cycle. I really hate having PSOC. I don’t know why God has given it to me but I know it has to be a reason. I don’t know where this will leave my husband and I trying for more children but right now I definitely want a break. This is turning our intimacy as a couple into a burden and I don’t want that. It’s not good for either of us and it’s not good for our marriage. So what is the next step? I don’t know.

I just know that my Jesus loves me and He will get me through this. I have nothing else to go off of because this isn’t fair. I didn’t do anything to deserve this. There has be something beyond me going on and I know God is working this out for His glory. But if you think of it, send a prayer my family’s way. Even though I’m standing strong with my faith doesn’t mean something like this doesn’t hurt. I’d have to be a robot to think that not being able to have a child is no big deal.

So off I go getting to raise my one miracle child and loving my husband. That’s all I can do. It’s up to God to do the rest.

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3 thoughts on “Dang PCOS

  1. Gracelyn,

    Yours is a beautiful name!
    God’s grace enables His children to do what they can not do in their own strength.

    “But by the grace of God I am what I am:
    and his grace which was bestowed upon me was not in vain;
    but I laboured more abundantly than they all:
    yet not I, but the grace of God which was with me.”
    I Corinthians 15:10

    “Seeing then that we have a great high priest, that is passed into the heavens,
    Jesus the Son of God, let us hold fast our profession.
    For we have not an high priest which cannot be touched with the feeling of our infirmities;
    but was in all points tempted like as we are, yet without sin.
    Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy,
    and find grace to help in time of need.”
    Hebrews 4:14-16

    “Fear not: for I have redeemed thee, I have called thee by thy name; thou art mine.
    2 When thou passest through the waters, I will be with thee;
    and through the rivers, they shall not overflow thee:
    when thou walkest through the fire, thou shalt not be burned;
    neither shall the flame kindle upon thee.
    3 For I am the LORD thy God, the Holy One of Israel, thy Saviour:”
    Isaiah 43:1b-3a

    “Being confident of this very thing,
    that he which hath begun a good work in you
    will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ:”
    Philippians 1:6

    Susanne

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