I know that I have it pretty good really. I have a roof (even though it’s my parent’s roof) over my head, a newer car, and a family that loves me. I am richer than most people in the world. Then why do I feel like I am so poor so often? Probably because I am listening to the things of this world and letting the devil get in my head. When I am focused on Jesus, my thoughts are only gratitude but when they aren’t, things start to get scary. I am irritated and mean to the people I love and I can only see the things I don’t have instead of the things I do have.
It’s a a vicious cycle and it is hard to get off it some times, but it is possible to change things around if you have noticed you are on a similar cycle. The only thing that can get me out of the cycle is prayer and spending time with God. I know that life is busy and there are many days my prayer time is just “Lord, keep me safe today” while I am pulling out of the driveway. But I do try to keep my head in the right direction. My heart always wants to be with God and in His path but this world is tricky. It’s only with His help that I can do anything and most days get out of bed and get going 🙂
Man all I can do is applaud single parents. The longest I have ever had to watch my daughter without my husband present was four days while he was at a work conference. But now I have beat my record. My husband and I have had to live in separate locations for three weeks now and I have to say it is really tough. I won’t go into why we haven’t been able to be in the same place but I will say it has to do with our rental. The why isn’t important it is the fact that I have been a single parent for three weeks that this post is about.
I always knew that being a single parent was hard but this little taste has given me a whole new admiration for them. How they raise their children without losing their minds, I will never know. I miss my husband so much on a daily basis because everything depends on me. I mean as a stay at home mom I am used to having most of the stuff fall on my shoulders but I always knew that my husband would be home at 5:00pm to help me out. I would be able to finish the day with my partner. Well these few weeks have really been stretching me. I still have dishes on the counter and it is 9:00pm and they will probably stay there until tomorrow. I am not Super Woman and I don’t like to pretend I am. But it makes me think how single parents do it. They seem like super heroes to me.
So if you are a single parent I really admire you. Keep up the good work and know that it will all be worth it in the end. I do have to say though that I will be glad when this season of my husband and I being a part is over. I miss him so much.
There is so much going on in my life right that I can’t explain it all. It would be another book in itself. Not all of it is bad. Actually a lot of it is great but it is still busy. And there is nothing wrong with that in itself but what it can do is make so I am only looking at myself. I forget to look at those around me and frankly care about how their day is going. I was reminded today by a sweet couple who just had their first baby but she came too early and has to be kept in the NICU. They can only see her through the incubator and can only hold her for short periods right now.
Whenever I read their updates, my heart is put into check at what really matters. It isn’t where I live or what I have that matters. I have learned that all can be lost in the blink of an eye. What does matter is that my family is safe and healthy. I have a great support system and great God to back me up. Life might not be perfect but it can always be more challenging. So I will praise God in the storm and look forward to the brief calm at the end.
I know that I just offended the majority of Christians in America and that is good. If my title offended you, then that means that you are not a snobby chicken. Ok where did I even get my title? The other day I was feeding our chickens with my mom and she found a black insulator that had these red beetles on it so she went and put it in the chicken pen. We expected the chickens to go nuts over these bugs, but do you know what they did? They looked at the bugs and refused to eat them. They just stared at them and then walked into their chicken house. That’s when I saw the comparison to the Church these days.
I am blessed to be in a healthy and thriving church right now but that wasn’t always the case. I was in some churches that had distorted beliefs that they were the only correct part of the Body of Christ and then other churches who just went off on their own tracks with the gospel. It’s so nice to be in a church that is teaching the Word and out serving as the hands and feet of Christ. There is one area that my Pastor is passionate about is the wishy washy Christian. They are the ones that go to church, listen to the message, and then go and live the rest of their lives unmoved. His vision is to see the WHOLE Body of Christ coming together and change our region and the world with the love of Jesus.
So if you were offended by my title then that means you are not a wishy washy Christian. If you looked at it and it didn’t bother you, then maybe you should really look at your walk with Christ. There is so much going on in our world that shows the Devil’s time is running short. He is out there trying to do as much damage as he can before Christ returns. At least the Christians in America (I can’t say about anywhere else since I don’t live there) are at a crossroads. I am sure everyone knows about the bathroom thing going on, the Muslim issues going on and the fall of the power in the church in America. It’s no secret. We as Christians are giving away our power left and right. We are giving the Devil the power to take over our country and we are ok with it! I would say that those who call themselves Christians are nothing but snobby chickens. We overlook thing that shouldn’t be. We just figure if we just go in out fancy chicken houses the evil will just go away.
I have news for you. Sin won’t just go away! We need to stand up for whats right and what God stands for while keeping the love of Jesus still there. It’s only going to get worse because the Devil’s time is short and he knows. This is the time in the church’s history that we need to be the strongest. We can’t let him know that he can win. We can’t let him think he can destroy the unity of the Body of Christ more than he has already.We need to come together and show our strength because the smallest faith (the size of a mustard seed) can move mountains.
Right now God is really testing me to see how I react to certain situations. Sadly, I am sure that I am failing. I know how I should react but that is not the way I have been reacting. Proverbs 15:1 says “A soft answer turneth away wrath: but grievous words stir up anger.” I wish my first reaction to trials are soft words but more than likely they are harsh and full of unneeded emotion. The only good thing is that normally it is not directed at my husband. He is actually my sounding board and guide on how to look at the situation differently.
How do I change this? Well a lot of it comes with maturity. I am on the my early twenties and have a lot to learn so maturity is something that is still coming day by day. There are some areas that I am mature in and nothing can shake me, but then there are others that my leaves will fall off if someone sneezes by me. Right now, we are in a season that is sneezing my leaves off. I was strong in the beginning but now that it has been a few weeks with not much progress, I am starting to fade. I am starting to become mad at God for not fixing this thing in our path even though He isn’t the one that put it there.
I need to remember to be mad at the right person. Satan is the one attacking us, not God. God is allowing it because, for some reason, it works into His greater plan for us. He knows our lying downs and uprisings. He knows when a flower withers and feeds the sparrows everyday. He made the world in six days and I know He holds mine in place. I am not too little for God to notice me. I am His child and I need to trust Him.
So I will continue on even though this afternoon all I wanted to do was walk into the woods and never come back. I am overwhelmed and I am trying to keep it as a burden on my shoulders. I am trying to give it over to God and not take it back up. I am human though and I like to have control, but that’s not how this works. I must trust and then listen and then obey.
So we are moving out of our rental and looking to buy a house instead of renting again. The good news is that we can afford and got pre-approved for financing. The problem? We keep getting outbid by Bay Area investors with their cash offers. Why is this even more frustrating? These investors more than likely will not move into the homes. They flip them and sell them again. So they buy up the homes that young families like mine can afford and then flip them to make them outrageously expensive.
It’s really the cause for the crazy housing prices in Northern California and why young families are having such a hard time getting a start. And for everyone not in California, the Bay Area (San Fran, Berkley and so on) is NOT Northern California. There’s Northern California, the Bay Area, and Southern California. So don’t let anyone tell you different 🙂
So now that that is taken care of, back to the housing issue. Since we are having such a hard time finding a house, we are going to have to rent again somewhere but it has to have the option of month to month which is almost as impossible as buying a house. So we are in a sticky situation.
Now I know you are probably wondering, then where have you been living? I have been living with my parents with my tow year old and my husband has been with co-workers. We have been doing this for two weeks. I am not sure what God is doing right now. I know He is doing something but right now I can’t see is but I know it has be something for our good. Otherwise this is all for nothing. So We are just praying for guidance and grace as we continue moving on down this journey. 🙂
I don’t believe that commercials are “evil” but I do think that they mess with your head. How? Well what are commercial supposed to do? They are supposed to make up unhappy with what yo have been blessed with and want that thing that really you could mare than likely live without. For example: You have a working car that might be less than ten years old but you see the new shiny one on TV and you go and trade in your perfectly good (maybe even paid off) car for one that does the same thing. You put gas in it, turn the key, push the pedal and the car moves. Why exactly did you then buy a new car? Because the commercial you saw made you believe that you “needed” that new car.
That is the magic of the commercials and all the marketing that goes into them. Companies spend millions to have what happened to you happen. They don’t care that you don’t really need that new car, they just want to sell more cars. This is where I think commercials are evil and where a lot of our countries problem come from. Greed is HUGE in the world. If you think about it, most of the wars and conflicts in the past were over greed. Millions (maybe even billions in total) of people have lost their lives over greed. Now we don’t go killing people in our everyday life (at least I pray not) for the things we want. But there is still that root of greed that is in all of us to want that next best thing. You need the contentment weed killer to knock it out.
But how? Well there are some many options now for commercial free viewing. Our family uses Netflix but there’s Hulu and Amazon Prime and others that do the same thing. I have come to really enjoy no commercials because they are also very annoying. I don’t want to watch a 60 second blurb on a truck, I want to see what happens in my show! And using Netflix has done that. I can’t watch normal TV anymore since I can’t stand the commercials 🙂 But how can this help with greed?
It’s like my two year old, out of sight – out of mind. I don’t see all those messages every day so I don’t think about them. Plain and simple. I don’t see everything I am “missing” in my life because I only see what I have and I am thankful for it. Now don’t think that I am perfect at this. I still see things on billboards, ads, the internet, and those around me to have enough greed build up that I still want other things that what I have. But it’s more manageable. I can be more content longer this way.
Why don’t you give it try? I have no affiliation to any companies and have the worst product loyalty so pick who you want. Try it for 30 days and see if your attitude changes toward contentment. If, you are totally hard core, try no TV at all for 30 days. That’s really hard but I did that when we were fist married and broke and I found that I really didn’t care about TV it wasn’t that big of thing and I got a ton of stuff done. But every once in awhile a good veg session is needed for everyone 🙂
Comment below and let me know how it goes or any thoughts you might have on this topic.
So things have been really crazy this week. We had to leave the house dur to my husband and daughter having breathing trouble and have been in a hotel or with family the past four nights. I’ll give a full report later but know that I am still here but life is just really nuts. Still waiting for a mold test and, until then we can’t move forward. Continued prayers for wisdom would be appreciated 🙂