Have you ever said the title line before your kids? I know I have said that about my daughter too many times that I have lost count. She can make me so mad at times that I would buy her a toy if she would just listen to me. Have you ever been in your bathroom crying, begging God to change your child’s heart so that they will listen? That they know that you have what is best for them in mind? That even though you say no as a parent for their good because you know there is something better right around the corner?
I have to say I was there but did you notice something about what you were asking God to do for you with your kid? Aren’t those the same things He says to us? Proverbs 3:5-6 says, “Trust in the Lord with all thy heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct your paths”. Let’s now say in a way that might be easier to recognize.
“Billy, please listen to me. I know what is best for you even if you don’t see it right now. If you will just be patient we have something really awesome happening tomorrow and I can’t wait to show you.”
Now that sounds familiar doesn’t it. When I realized that I sound the way to God how my three year old sounds to me, I felt a little sick. I am an adult. I don’t throw tantrums anymore.
“Really?” I heard my inner voice say. “What did you just do yesterday when you didn’t get the news about your house that you wanted yesterday?”
“Uh.” I uttered internally trying to find an answer.
“See! you are no better than that little girl you are hiding in the bathroom from. She just wants to spend time with you, and, unlike God she can’t see you right now.”
So I wiped my eyes, got off the toilet and went back out there with my beautiful little girl. Because I realized that I was still a child in God’s eyes. I might be a grown adult in the world’s eyes but I am still very young in my faith. I have a lot of work to do so that I can be like the mature women of God I look up to, and I was not going to do that on my bathroom floor. I wasn’t going to do it blaming God for not giving me what I wanted and throwing a tantrum like my daughter had done for the twentieth time that day that had forced me into the bathroom to begin with.
What was I going to do? I have to say that I understand God in a whole new way after becoming a parent. I see myself as a youngster trying to please my heavenly father and getting upset when He says no. I am no different in how I talk sometimes to my God like my daughter talks to me. I yell and scream at Him because I don’t think He is being fair. Why do they have all the “blessings” and I don’t?
“Have you ever thought that you aren’t ready for them yet?” I heard my inner voice say as I starred at my daughter.
“Just like she isn’t ready to have chocolate right before bed. I wouldn’t be good for her.”
“Right, but tomorrow it will make a good treat and she will appreciate it then because she had to wait.”
“I don’t wait well.” A tear slid down my eye. “I don’t think it is fair how God works things that the faithful are not blessed but those who don’t do His will are.”
“I know, but you will see how it all works out in the end. He is still a good Father. He provides everything you need right now, and when you get the rest, you will rejoice even more than you would right now.”
I then felt a peace come over me. I knew that I would never not have another tantrum but I knew that I understood why God did the things He did better. He is looking out for me in ways I will never know just like I do for my daughter. One day she will thank me for all the hard work it was to raise her, but until then I will have to wait. I will have to wait on God as He reveals His plan step by step.
So I pray that you will be there right beside praying for maturity in Christ to handle the ups and downs of life. I pray for you to have a peace about where you are right now and that you will listen to the voice of God. He is there for you and He will never leave you. He is a good Father.