Imagine looking in your fridge and you have nothing to make for dinner? Then you look at the credit cards and they are too high and you need to pay them off. So you look at your bank account and it doesn’t look much better, actually it looks worse. Does this sound like your story? No shame if it does. It doesn’t mean you are a low life or and bad person, it just means that life as been a little meaner than you were prepared for. That’s where places like food closets and banks come in handy so that we can feed our families.
Well something like this sort of happened recently. It’s not like we can’t buy food so for all my family reading, please don’t think that. It’s just that we really want to pay off our credit cards before the end of the year and being a one income family you have to be creative. I am on so many levels but my pantry is one area that hasn’t recovered from us having to leave everything behind in our last house. I was actually really proud of it since it was to the point that I had all the staples to last for an entire week or even longer on hand. Now I am only able to buy a week’s worth of food at a time and when shopping day is here the fridge looks a little bit more bare than I would like.
So yesterday I went to a food closet for the first time and it was very humbling. I grew up thinking that food closets and banks were only for poor people who didn’t have any thing otherwise. Well at the moment since we have set a goal and I would like to restock the tings I have lost that’s me. But it wasn’t like I expected.
I expected to see a bunch of people sneering their noses at me as I pull up in my 2006 Matrix (our only car) in my gym clothes with a gym badge hanging off my key ring. Unfortunately some did look at me that way since why would someone like me need to come to a place like this? Didn’t my husband make enough to buy food if I can have luxuries like this? What they don’t know is that we have lost everything, the last date my husband and I went on was get our infertility tests done last week, we only have one car because our roof needs to be replaced, our normally unused credit cards are carrying balances and we still have to pay off many other people who graciously helped us out during our time of need. You add that all up with the mortgage and the bills and yes I do belong in a place like this because everyone has their own story of why they are there.
Now I pray I don’t keep having to go for long since there people who have it way worse than me. At least my husband has a job and many of them don’t. So this isn’t a long term plan. Actually I probably won’t even go every week since what we were provided weren’t things that we even use. It’s just until we can get back on our feet and our credit cards paid off.
We are adults being responsible and if anyone thinks there’s a problem with that then maybe you should have a heart check before you are humbled to this level. Trust me I am being very humbled right now because I was the one who was on there other side wondering why a middle class (if there is such a thing any more in California) woman with a toddler is going to a food closet. It’s because we are all human and some times we all need to be creative sometimes.