So Emma and I have had an interesting week. She is an awesome kid but some times she definitely gives me a run for my money. I noticed lately the thing that I am saying to her the most is “you need to be thankful for what you have” and today I had the Holy Spirit hit me with a soul crusher. Let me explain.
We have been having to do some outdoor renovations on our new house and it has been a project that is taking longer than expected. Now we have to paint the whole house and will eventually have to reside the house. Only I have so many projects that would cost half as much as the outdoor projects are costing inside the house and I would get to see them everyday. I have also been pushing my husband to start planning for these projects but he is so not in the remolding mood after all these outdoor projects. So here is where the sting from the Holy Spirit came in. After I told my daughter she had to be thankful for something I made for lunch and the Holy Spirit asked me if I was thankful for what I have been given?
Talk about ouch. So am I good example for my daughter? Not recently. I have been looking at things that I want to see changed instead of being thankful for the things that been done to make the house better from the outside. Even though I want the things changed on the inside, I will have to stay patient. They will get done but, for now, it is the outside of the house that will be made better and I have to be thankful for that.
What do you do when you wake up first thing in the morning? Go straight for the coffee pot or maybe you are on of those amazing people who go and grab your running shoes. Me? I lay in bed for a minute and listen to my daughter play in her room and how joyful she is in the simple things in life.
It doesn’t take much for her to be happy. She doesn’t care right now what she wears or how great her toys are. She is just happy to go outside and play in the dirt with me and my husband. As long as she has us, she is the happiest. Is that how we are as adults? I know I’m not most days. I have to fight jealousy and greed on a daily basis while walking through this material world we live in. But right now my daughter is so innocent that she isn’t touched by it. I wish that I can be like that.
“I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.”
Now wanting the BMW may not seem like tribulation but it is. Satan gives us tribulation everyday whether it be spiritual or by man. Both will try to take our joy away but the joy of the Lord is our strength. We can be happy in the simple things as well as the affluent things because we are of Jesus and He has already done the work for us. I mean look at this face.
How can you not see the joy in her eyes? She just loves life and everything in it. I admire her and want to be like her. I would love it if what made me happy was my binki, my monkey and my mommy. In many ways I do. I have my Bible, my Jesus and my family 🙂
Since I am dealing with this whole PCOS thing, it is easy for me to look at what I don’t have more than what I do. I guess it has something to do with me being human. But this morning I was reminded by God that I have may blessings already. Yes, I have had another hard week with disappointment but that doesn’t mean I should miss out on the little blessing I already have.
Her name is Emma and she is my sunshine. This morning she did the cutest thing I think she has ever done. I was busy doing my morning chores and she came into my room with something in her hand that she was insisting to put in my hair. Of course her being a toddler, I was skeptical, but her little eyes were just begging me to let her do it. So I did and you know what it was? A star sticker. She thought it would look pretty in my hair like the clips and hairbands I put in hers. It melted my heart completely and I realized that this was my reason for living. If I never have another baby that is OK because I have the best little girl in the world. I mean how can’t you just smile when you look at her face?
She is my miracle. I should have put her middle name as Grace, but it is Rochelle, because she is God’s gift I don’t deserve. And after she was done decorating my hair, she went on to decorating my pants.
Isn’t it pretty? Emma was sure proud herself and I kept them on for as long as the adhesive would allow.
It was what I needed this morning. So this is meant to encourage you today. God has His rainbow out there for you somewhere in your trials. You just have to look for it. It would have been easy for me to just push her away and tell her she was not going to put anything in my hair until I saw it, but that would have taken the joy out of it.
I love the quote by Beth Moore that says, “Today I choose joy. Even if I don’t feel like it, I will choose to be joyful in all things”. I feel like that was a good example to me. I decided to trust my daughter wasn’t putting a spider or something on my head and allowed her to do what she was trying to bless me with. And I was blessed.
So I hope today, if you are having a hard time, you look for the blessings and joy around you. It may not feel like there is any in sight but there is. Because the joy of the Lord is my strength and I will remember to choose it everyday. 🙂